My blog post for this week is a short one. This past week
hasn’t been adventurous in the sense that I went somewhere cool and took great
photos. This week has been one of those learning weeks. Michol took off for the
Amazon a week ago. With her gone I was literally the only person in my entire
apartment complex. I had a fear of
living alone. I honestly think this was God’s way of pushing me out of that
fear. Now I feel like if I can live in a complex in a foreign country alone, I can
live just about anywhere.
I think it also has to do with this new spiritually
conscious mindset I have. I keep reciting verses in my head, like Psalms 56:3
and “The Lord is with me; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?” It helps too when I’m walking alone (and I
secretly think I might be attacked by a street dog cuz I smell like kitty,lol) But In
the wake of the deaths of two young people associated with me and the Batman
movie shooting, I was instilled with this hope.
Our lives really are just a vapor and God didn’t intend for us to walk
through this life afraid. I believe that
while we have free choice, God already knows what we’re gonna choose and it’s all
part of his master plan. When I think on
that, it’s hard not to be at peace.
Like I can really feel God’s presence in my every day. When Michol took off the cat started crying.
Really crying all night and much of the day because she’s used to sleeping in
Michol’s bed. She wasn’t sleeping in my bed so we were just at war this week.
She kept me up all night and in an effort to make her diurnal, I kept her up
all day. I almost took her to Valeria’s
house, but I really thought God was trying to teach me patience so I kept at
it. Sure enough as the days went by I was less and less bothered until one
morning I realized that her crying didn’t bother me at all. And last night, for
the first time in a week she was relatively quiet all night. I’m letting her
sleep more today so I don’t know if it will last but the point is that the
process will be a calm one.
I’m hoping to use the patience, forgiveness, and mercy I’m
learning with kitty on the other people in my life. And, And, And Kitty kills
cockroaches!!!!! Yep cockroaches! She used to just play with them but now she’s
old enough to hunt. I think she ate the first one and it probably didn’t taste
good so now she just leaves them dead. Pride. Um… I thought class at the farm
by myself yesterday that was fun. I think they understood me, lol. No it went
fine, I’m gonna go every class. I love
the farm, especially the drive. Living in the dust you forget how much
beautiful green space is literally 10 mins away.
Last but not least, my box came!! Been eatin apples and peanut
butter, peanut butter and banana sandwiches, peanut butter sandwiches. Yum. And learned how to tune my guitar. And it’s
week 17 of my 17 week fitness journey. Tomorrow is an hour on the treadmill.
Praise God cuz He really gets me through. I realized I run about 4 ½ miles an
hour now so after I take some time to acknowledge this feat, I’ll up my speed
until I can run 5 miles in an hour. Then I’m gonna stop,lol. I think 5 miles
three times a week for the rest of life if God sees it that way is a good plan.
I sat in the house all weekend cuz everybody’s gone. As much
as I tried to tell myself I wasn’t I was kinda lonely. Then I thought, “What are you doing, you’re
wasting the time God entrusted to you. Go move.” And as soon as I started doin
stuff, more opportunities appeared! So, like I said this week was one of those
emotion-filled learning weeks. I have a
little more initiative, patience, and courage than I did the day before. All in all it’s been a good week. And it’s not over yet. I’m excited. I’m happy.
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